Writing and Finding Balance
This started out as a completely different post but ended as more of a way to figure out where I was going and where I am. It’s interesting because while writing this I had tons of epiphanies – and I even changed the title to something more reflective of what this process of writing did for me. Anywase – it reads more like a journal entry, but since it helped me figure out a direction I decided to post it. Maybe it will somehow help someone else – even though its the ramblings in my head. Maybe it will help no one else, but give you a little insight into my mind. Either way, here it goes…
My mind has been in a state of confusion for about a month. Before that I was just doing what I wanted to do and hoping to make an income out of it.
I learn and I share. That’s what I do. That’s what I love doing – I think!
Lately I’ve been questioning what I really want to do with my life. I thought that learning and sharing was it. But since the money hasn’t been rolling in for me, and I’ve been seeing disappointment after disappointment, my mind has taken over my heart and started shouting “Is this really what we are supposed to be doing?”
I have visions of writing in my head. I feel like that’s where I should be heading. Writing an eBook, info-product, or even that fiction story that I’ve had in my head for so long, but there’s this nagging voice of doubt that keeps me from doing it.
- · A doubt that I can’t do it.
- · A bigger doubt that it won’t work out.
- · An even bigger doubt that my time will not be well utilized for the next little while.
I’m looking for signs. I’m waiting for them! And when I get a little sign about what I should be doing with my life that resonates as the truth I get excited. But about a day later I’m confused again. I’m questioning whether it will work out or whether it will be a waste of my time.
Writing this I can see my answer is pretty clear. I’m already wasting my time! I’m wasting my time being indecisive and doing nothing! So maybe I should just start doing something new!
But that’s my other question that only receives confusing answers. If I stop doing what I’m doing will I have succeeded in a big way tomorrow? Will I cut myself just short of succeeding? Will I be guaranteeing myself another failure by not continuing to try – or have I tried enough!
So maybe that’s the answer. Do a little of what I was already doing with some new stuff mixed in. Find a balance in there somewhere. Do 50/50 and see which is more profitable. And that’s what I need! I need to see something profitable; not only to my wallet but to my rewards of what I am doing.
One of my most memorable lessons in life came from a teacher of mine in college. She said – Balance is important in life. That one little statement resonated as the truth with me from the moment she said it to right now. Balance in every area of your life is extremely important.
So there’s my answer – do some new with the old. Find a balance. At least try to see if the new works. And most importantly stop wasting my time doing nothing and start doing something because my life is occupied with nothing right now!